Head to the Sun

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It's not one of the best feelings, but it is one that doesn't pass.. only if it was soothing, things would have just being more beautiful.. a life, which can find beauty in every little thing has started to fade away is dismal.. mind has nothing to imagine.. blank mind is said to be the first step to salvation, trust me it's not always true. At times it could be a sign of fear.. fear of all the things which might turn out to be true, which you are scared to even imagine. One part of your heart is still smiling being nostalgic about what you were and the other part is torn apart with the realisation of new you. You pop in another sleeping pill, lie down dead on your bed just to fall asleep. Thinking you would never wake up tomorrow, and the AC in your room will keep you cool for the next couple of days atleast.. those will be the most peaceful days, a mini vacation with no phone calls, no messages and absolutely no bondage.. it's will be freedom from everything even your body, which still has put you under a lot of restrictions for being a girl.  It's so unfortunate to sleep with such a thought, but the irony is that there is a rising sun every day and I happen to be enjoying sunrises lately.

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