Feel It!!!

 Some days are really peaceful, not because of any particular reason. They are peaceful because your are able to enjoy the moment as it is. It's all about how you are perceiving all the events of the day that makes you experience the true essence of calmness inside you.  I was always fond of glow worms, one of the most mesmerizing moments of my childhood is when the garden used to be filled with glow worms in the night. It always felt, as if a bunch of stars just came down on the ground. I lost this experience to growing up, the more number of years I added on to my age, more the priorities of life shifted to things which were superficial. It's gets dark everyday even now, I take out sometime to sit on the water tank of my 24 storey apartment. The horizon of the city keeps glowing with light, as if millions of glow worms are marching all around. The mind keeps on asking which was better? The glow worms, the smell of fresh flowers, the cold breeze or the city lights and the fast

No matter what, just smile. The mother told this to her little girl. The girl started crying louder and louder after listening to this. Agreed, she was too young to understand the depth of the saying.  Years passed and her mother's saying started to ring in her ears again and again. It started to make so much sense to her.  Nobody likes to be there with you when you are crying, it's a difficult thing to handle. Not all have that strength. Your tears are taken as a sign of weakness, which very few know is actually a symbol of bravery. It takes enough guts to cry out, to be oblivious of what the entire world will think about you, to accept yourself for who you are. I really don't know in which world are we living in, where we learn to tame a entire tsunami of emotions and portray a calm, contend and fake smile. Smile, thats when you will be accepted by others.

एहसास हूँ मैं, रहने दो अपने साथ गुज़र तोह वक़्त भी जाता है, न ढलने दो दिन के साथ थोड़ा मैंने थोड़ा तुमने, जो सीचा है एक एक पल ठहर जाने दो उन लम्हों को, रहने दो माथे पे दाग यह लाल कुछ तुम देखो कुछ हम देखे, खो जाने दो लफ़्ज़ों को आज हाथों में यह हाथ रहे, ऐसा हो रिश्तों का साज़ एहसास हूँ मैं, रहने दो अपने साथ गुज़र तोह वक़्त भी जाता है, न ढलने दो दिन के साथ

  Life is so vast and dreams are too many. Ever realised that you are always short of something? Before we could even appreciate what we have, we crib for something more. Something for the future is a constant, while been unaware of even the next moment or the nearest future. When you think you have enough to give out only to realise that you are exhausted and you need replenishment, is that moment of truth that awakes you from the dream of a perfect relationship. There is no perfect relationship, it is that one person with a lot of imperfections, who makes it perfect. There is always more expectation from that person to give more and more every passing day with no or negligible recognition for the contributions. The surreal illusions of the future over powers the beauty of the present. 

 She left him long back, all alone to suffer in the darkness of his life. Loneliness started to penetrate his entire body like swords, the walls made loud enough noises to make him deaf. But he still kept breathing with the hope that he might be able to over come this phase. Struggling to get back his life energy and breathing through each day to feel better was the only thing he had with him. He kept on knocking on all the closed doors, just to figure those were not for him. Only if one of these doors opens up, "I will be able to see her". Little that he knew that she was gone forever. We never realise the value of breath till the time you are dead. Sometimes this same breath gives you immense pain as it doesn't let you die. She is his entire world, a dream that he always wanted to live. Tears kept on rolling down his cheeks, body kept of shivering in pain and his mind kept on chattering ' did you even love me once?'

 Another day failed you, left you hopeless and  As the day approaches night, your hope for another better day diminishes. A lost soul roaming around, with no idea where to go, nothing to look upto. Why me? Is the only question that keeps ringing in your mind again and again Everyone has their own battle to fight and own reason to live for. The only thing that we forget is it's our own, no body can share it with us. Expectation of a shared pain is the cause for more pain, which we fail to understand. It's not the first day you are crying to sleep and unfortunately not the last day,there are many more nights to come.

 Are u tired? Because you are running in my mind, is such a cliched pick up line, but what if, he is actually running in your mind all the time. Babes are you traveling alone, a message blinked on her phone. Alone.. oh yes.. but actually no.. I feel you are around. May be this is what people call connection or love. Nothing seperates you, not even distance. They clicked at the first meet, small talks to conversation, conversation to meeting, happened one after the other very swiftly. The more they started exploring each other then matched like the broken pieces of a puzzle. "You are so like me" is a constant for them. Ask me what's bothering me a lot every day? He asked. I don't know, you have to Tell me baby. Whether you will come home to me tonight after office or go back to your place. If you won't come tonight, then when will be the next that I get to see you. She laughs and says it's just 12 hours that you have seen me. I am sure you can wait longer.